PasopNegra

 Finifugal :(n.) hating endings; someone who tries to prolong the inevitable/ final moments My grandfather always told us stories of his past. Oddly enough, he always chose to dwell there rather than face the reality he was currently experiencing. Today, in particular, he preferred to recount the story of how he lost his wife. Whenever he talked about it, his deep-set eyes held a clock turning back to that time. A certain kind of pain wrenched a guilt-filled moan from his very chest. I was drowning myself in kachipembe again that day. Though the war was over, I felt like I was in the middle of the battlefield again. The stench of rotting blood, mud, and gunpowder still lingering in my nostril s. With each sip, we would teeter between reality and memory. The young boys would urge us to tell them our body counts, from our most gruesome kills to the most dangerous missions we would tell them all for another bottle of beer and moonshine. Tonight was no different, I drank till I pis...

  Sula                                                                                                                                                                 ...so it came down to this? Sula my love, I have hope for the both of us Sula           I never hated my name more than now                          Sula my name coming off as a painful groan Sula          ...

Listen I hate to repeat myself like a broken record Over and over it goes in a tight circle  Is it so hard to understand  No touching  No talking  No lovemaking Just feel the need to leave  the tip I'm here to make you feel animalistic  Like a cavalier I'm here to entertain you  To show you the world I'm the forbidden fruit that your wife cant be compared to I give you a few moments of bliss that feels ceaseless Danglin' what you already have at home I just show you what she cant do  50 for a dance 100 for the ne plus ultra orgasm Come back next time you hear!😘                                                                       _PasopNegra

  (n.) the overwhelming urge to run away... Let's go! We have no place here Why do you hesitate at this crucial moment  They are just tarrying your fate Yet you feel trapped by love Let's leave! Do you wish to suffer further  You hear their laughter it's mocking your  your permanence How foolish of you  Get out! Escape and live again Leave and stay gone Do not look back Belonging is futile So keep moving and live                                                                                                                                            ...

Oh wait...  I wanna get something off my chest. I want you  I wanna get to know you .  I want pointless fights about pizza and pineapples  late night texts cute pictures of us together.  I want to hold your hand at times just to be sure that you are really here.  I want to be sarcastic together,       to be open and honest with our fears and doubts, with our feelings.  I just don't want to be a lover or a partner.  I want to be a a best friend couple.  I want us to be ourselves around each other without the fear of being judged.  But most of all I wish I had more guts to let you know the rest... But oh wait you never cared for it anyway. I don't need words  All I need is just one look  Just one touch Just one kiss Just a caress A gesture  A hug  To say it all No words Just us You and I  Me and you  We 🌱 PASOP NEGRA 

The smell hit me before she did My only escape is when I hid In my dreams In my prayers wishing to god that I don't ever smell that barley breath It intoxicated her mind Its funny how we are similar just different We both have a different definitions to our word called escape When will we both realize its enough Enough with being in a drunk state of mind Enough with just taking the bullshit excuses every morning after Enough with the lies to the outside world Enough with the marks marring your beautiful dark skin Soon there will be an escape... Hang on Enough will soon come _ PasopNegra