Diary Entry 1

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Dear Diary


it's me again, looking at the rest of this blank page

Wondering what the fuck to write about in this day and age

Look at me...a man in a ledge looking for the guts to finally jump

Do you hear me Diary? Do you hear my agonizing moans? Begging for death to pay me a visit?

Sometimes i sit and wonder, how did my world get plundered into looking for something with no aim.

Look out there into the world Diary, i can't wait to leave it

Should i make the orchestra-tor of my life to reach the final crescendo? OR Should i let it steadily move at its own pace?

I'll answer that for you Diary
But not today
With my mind reaching into the deep dark depths of The River Acheron
I cant help but let my inner demons slink through my picture perfect facade

and let their voices ricochets between my mind and my heart.

Dear Diary... I...never mind

_PasopNegra

Comments

  1. Unknown1:26 pm, February 03, 2018

    Dear diary

    If the me that wants to die sings louder than the me that wants to live

    Tell me....

    Which one...

    Should I..

    Listen to.





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    1. PasopNegra3:54 pm, October 09, 2019

      you should listen to the thought that speaks the lowest...

      Delete

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