Fake Smiles

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It’s ok…
 I am happy
They told me happiness can be found anywhere:
Family
Friends
Money
Power
Food

Is that all there is?
What if I have none of that in my grasp
How do you sweeten a bitter heart?
There are so many questions
And each time the answers build up
And when one is answered there in the next step
Lies another waiting for me
I keep feeling these immense amount of hatred
And it too builds
Builds
Like an explosion


No
No.

I’m fine, happy to be here
Happy to be of service to ya!
After I am used…
I will gather my flimsy garbs
Take my meager pay
And go back to the trusty corner
Taking on another woman’s man
Satisfying the carnal need
Refusing to taint their innocent brides
Instead contaminating me
Their white fluids might look pure
And they fill me up till it spills from my insides
I must be grateful to be used
Fake smiles
I’m happy to be of service



_PasopNegra_

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